CNY emergency.

I was so nervous I nearly puked. I am in a kind of a state of trauma right now, and trying my best to quickly calm myself down. It helps that the TV is on and local artistes are belting out CNY songs. But still, the heart is fluttering. I'm not good in times of emergency. My head is hurting on one side. The left temple and all the way in.

We just had a sort of emergency. One moment I was just on my mobile talking to Pika, and then I was home packing the dining table and coffee table, while Mom was cleaning the jewellery drawer and Shaelyn was drawing on the little whiteboard. Shaelyn and I were hollering the "Elephants, I like elephants" song at the top of our lungs. And then Mom said that Eric was complaining that his eye was uncomfortable, so I went and had a look. There he was, hugging the huge box of lego to his chest, his left eye a red and swollen mess. He kept swiping at it with his hand. I asked if he was okay, if he wanted me to put some eye drops for him. I expected protests but none came. He said 'yes, please.' I asked Mom for the suitable eye drops, while I was searching for it, Eric called out weakly, 'you haven't finished singing the song'.

I returned with the eye drops and tried my very best to get some into his eye. He was unusually compliant, but every time a drop landed in his eye he would violently swipe at it and rub it so hard. I eventually gave up, settled him down with his lego and finished singing the song for him. He stood up, ran into the room. I followed after a while later and found him face down on his pillows. I asked if he was fine, and he replied, 'A little Peacock is helping me'.

I told Mom that Eric wasn't okay. She said she'll have a look at him later.

I minded my own business for a bit, but soon heard a lot of screaming at Eric to stop rubbing his eye. I went to check out what the commotion was about. Mom was very anxious and blabbered about some swollen eye. I was thinking, hasn't it been swollen for a long time already? And then I realised that it was an abnormal swelling. I went and looked at Eric's eye. To my absolute horror, the white of his eye was swollen so badly that his entire iris was sunken in. The whites of his eye were a hue of pink, and there was a translucent membrane of sorts, like some sort of gel. When he blinked, his eyelids couldn't close completely. The swollen white of his eye was like an overhanging piece of flesh, sticking out between his eyelids. Still, he was violently scrubbing at his eye with the pillow, or his hands. We screamed at him to stop but he wouldn't listen.

I don't know what happened next. It was a mad rush to get clothes on, and going online on mobile to check for hospitals. Quick decisions made, and then Eric was bawling. Talking in opposites, as he always did when he was upset. "I'm not afraid of anything, I don't want my mom, I'm not afraid of the doctor, I don't want mommy..."

Out of the blue, Dad said, "Happy new year".

"What, already?" I checked my phone. 00.01. Mom said, "Oh is it the new year already? Happy new year!" Shaelyn said a happy new year in a falsely happy voice and I managed to mumble mine weakly. And then they were all out of the house.

Shaelyn and I scrubbed our own hands with Dettol. I got my contact lenses out and went online to check about swollen eyes. It seems that Eric will be fine. It happens. But man, what a terrifying period of time.

I remember Christmas eve some years ago, 2008 I think, when Braydon was over at our house and fractured his finger when it got caught in the door. His nail broke in half and he bled all over the floor. Honestly, dripping blood all over the floor. And he was screaming out in pain and crying harder than I had ever seen. There was no adult at home except the maids and Grandma. I was panicked like crazy, got his bleeding finger tied up and rushed him to the clinic, called my parents, who called his parents, who couldn't get away from what they were occupied with, and then Mom rushed home and drove us to the hospital...

Why do bad things happen on the eves of holidays?

Why are there always so many emergencies in this house? It's freaking tiring.

And I know, Sergey told me about the law of attraction, and how bad things attract bad things over and over. I saw it myself, happening to Sofie. But how, how to make this craziness just stop already?